Well, brb. 3 minutes or so. >>

Kk. >>

Hey hey hey!

o-o

No, wait.

o-o

I'll tell you

AH

Omg.

x.x

>>

What happened? o-o

I cant breath when I get them. x.x

Thats how I woke up.

But anyway..o-o I'll tell you something in a bit. xD Brb

Ah ok. o-o

Goh. Now im worried. xD

o-o About?

Yer pain. o-o

Shouldnt.

It hurts, but eh. x.x I need the pain.

o-o

That way I can cry without my mom or anyone..

Knowing what Im really crying about. xD

Aww.. xD

Right now I felt sick.. o-o watching this old man's hand shake while he was singing.

I got sad. u.u;

Aw.

Im..listening to..

Uhm.

Carrie Underwood

Just A Dream.

It makes me cry. o-o

o-o But I dont wanna cry. xD

I cant cry all day..

So when I get home..

Its the only time I can. o-o

I want to cry in the rain. o-o

xD

back

Fine then!xD -Idles?-

Wb. xD

NOOHHH

COME BACK~ o-o

xD

LOL!Ty

just kiddin

xD

;Clings.; x3

Lol

I feel much better now

x_x

Im hearing Sweet Victory. o-o

Yay. :3

coolie

xD

Lol

Im falling for Spongebob. o-o

LMFAO

oh shit

It's like an obssesion! xD

>>

-Hears obsessions by frankie J and baby bash come on in the bg-

...

xD

Lol. xD

Wheeeeez.

i'mma add in Haru!

o_o

Lily!~ ;o;

Tell yer mom about the pain. o-o

<3

I feel..weird. x.x

Wahh. D:

o-o

-Singing

What are you feeling, Lily? o-o

Horrible pain. Dx

Im just toughing it out. x.x

It will go away eventually.

Rawr. D:

aww

><

I took Nyquil, so maybe then I wont feel anything. xD

Fuckin...Jesse Mc cartney -.

I'll be hella numb. o-o

o-o

Damn you Carrie Underwood! D:<

I've always felt scared that I was going to live the rest of my life all alone. x.x And..now that I had someone to look forward to that..and he's gone. Its so much worse. x-x

aww...T_T

Omg. Nami!

xDD

That azn dude makes me laugh. o-o

Yey. :3

@_@

Chonny's so cute! D:

He kinda looks like a girl. xD

Sexy. >>

xD

xD

Wind! < Pelvic Thrust.>

xD

I love that! D:

Cousin: Hey, Janeth can I -- | Nami: Wind! ;Pelvic Thrust.; | Cousin: ...

xD

xD

Yeshh. xD

< Humps the earth.>

o-o

Yeshhh. o-o

;Video tapes.;

xD

xD

Captain Planet! ;Dance dance.;

>:]

UGHHH! I keep watching it. o-o It never gets tiring.. o-o

I know.

<6th time watching it.>

Nami Nami!

D;

Yes? o-o

o-o

I can tell you now.

About what? o-o

You know how Brr..<.<..like..always is mean to meh? D:

He picks on me. D:

What does he do?

He's just mean. o-o

He'd take down whatever I would Rp. xD

Now..since..Idk. o-o Since Michael is not here. And since he found that out..

He's been nice to me. o-o

creepy. D:

Ah. o-o

Mean, Nice and Creepy. o-o

Weird. xD

Eh, I dont mind. xD But its just weird..o-o

Haha. o-o

Hm. Makes me wonder. xD

o-o?

Damn you, Chonny! xD ;Keeps watching it.;

o__o

I think I'm gonna give Alex a chance..o-o I have to tell him my guidelines. xD

I always do that. o-o

With anyone I wanna date. Dx

Wooh. xD

Isnt Brr's other name also Alex? o-o

Noh, his name is Richard. xD

He told me it was Richard Alex..something. xD

I dont remember.

o-o

Neither do I. xD

All I know is his first name is Richard. o-o

xD

In a way its like "Omg. D:"

Fucking Richard. xD

o-o

I <3 my friend.

o-o

o-o

;Pelvic Thrust.; xD

>>

James Alexander Yaya. o-o

Eh? o_o

My friend. xD

Ah. xD

He feels bad for me. o-o So he wants to take me out and stuff.

It isnt nice saying.."I feel bad for you. So, come on! Lets go out." o-o

Psh. <<

That sounds so mean. xD "I feel bad for you."

Punk.

I know. o-o

But he makes me laugh.

He's like..

A male version of Nami.

xD

Who again? xD

He's a skater punk dude. :3

My teacher calls us Yoyos...

Awesome. x]

o-o; And..when I first met him he was like..

"My name is..James.."

"James..Bond."

xD

;Epic Novela Moment.;

POR-- ;Drops on knees.; QUE!~?

xD

< Held a bottle of wine.> Siempre estas en mi contra!

xD

I watched this Novela..where the mom of 3 daughters is always a bitch to them.

xD

o-o

Which in reality, SHE is against them from being in love with 3 guys that are brothers. xD

And she's always drinking wine when she says that. o-o

Lmao. o-o

WHERE IS MARIA

SHE STOPPED TALKING AND LEFT.

SHE DITCHED ME

<Sad.>

o-o

;o;

Wahhh. Dx

o-o

YAY

Wb! :3

Jes. >:3 Wb

>>

<<

Gomen, my computer's acting up...x-x

and thanks

S'ok. :3

okie

I will hurt you! Dx

?

EARTH! o-o

;Vibrates.;

...

xD

lol

I..AM..

47 PERCENT

GIRLY. o-o

Haha. o-o Dangly parts.

x3

No dangly parts!

D:

Bleh, I think...I'm going to change my ways a bit...

What ways?

o-o

Of how I am, I grow tired of being how I normally act, Maybe that's why I feel so depressed...I think I need to be more normal like other teens and quit being shy, There's this guy I like..he stares me down but never speaks to me ever since an incident that makes me...kinda hide when we're rolling on valley mills, but he hangs around my friend Lorenza.

And she wants me to go talk to em...but I never do...

So I think tomorrow i'm gonna force my self out of my shyness a bit...

Maybe, I dunno.

But i'm afraid of speaking to him without acting shy or like an idiot.

You should. :3 But..what incident?

Between me and my best friend

Everyone acts like that around a guy they like. o-o

You see it's like this.

Mhm.

o-o

She rubbed shit in my face about him being cute, that he liked her,this and that he liked white girls like her not mexicans.

So i'm like all hey, you knew I liked em, you're rubbing shit in my face I don't see how you could do that

And well she told em alot of shit about me which I never gave her permission to

I dunno what she told em

but he acts weird now when he sees me

she called him in front of me, telling him she wasn't gonna choose him we weren't gonna fight for no guy

but I never told her to do that , that she didn't have to not speak to em or go out with em

I was just telling her how I felt

and yeah...Pretty stupid, probably don't make sence...

He stares me down, and sometimes he'll say hi or pull up beside us looking like he wants to talk

But I find it awkward...I still seem a little damaged and hurt.

You should just talk to him. Like..not just walk up randomly and say.."Hey! I want to talk to you!" Because..if it were me, I'd be shy too. o-o Just when the circumstances are right. Like your friend is talkign to him or something, I dunno. Just when he says hi, say hi back or whats up..and..start talking like you normally do to us. o-o irl, I find it hard to talk to people like i do you guys...

Because Im so random..and sometimes straight forward with the truth. xD and sometimes people dont like that so I dont say much of anything, but if you like the dude..and he's always seem to stare at you.

I know i'm shy, I hide all the time >_<

Go for it and start talking to him. x-x No need to be shy over something stupid like that.

If your so called friend did all that shit. o-o

Its not your fault why you need to be shy. >_>

Whatever stupid shit syhe might have said..o-o ignore it and..talk like..none of that stuff happened, or he will always think the stuff your friend"<- said..without giving yourself a chance and him to know the truth. o-o

I'm not good at with talking with some of the guys sometimes xD but...I want to try

I mean...I just dun wanna walk up and think I know him

he hangs around alot of damn people

that's what gets me nervous.

Im mean to guys whether they are my friends or not. xD Idk why.

girls and guys x_x

So just slowly crawl yourself there. o-o

Be known! Dx

It's hard LOL I wish I had you both around to help me x_x gah or someone it's just...I dunno I get so damn shy I hate it!

If I was there, I'd go. o-o

I dun even know if he wants to talk I mean he rarely tells me Hi

Dont go with a mission, just do it randomly. o-o

He stares at me every time we come around every weekend, and yeah weird shit.

x_x

o-o

Just..get drunk.

LOL

DRUNK!

XD

And be..RAWR HAHAHAHA OMG, LOL. ROFTLOL..

o-o

xDDDD

And..yeah. >_>

they'd probably clown me then

LOL

I was crazy in freshmen year after I started opening myself up. xD

I'll shall stand next to Maria and sing the C.P song while I pelvic thrust. o-o

But stupid drama llama..o-o I quit. >_>

But eh I guess i'll try to, hopefully he won't ignore me and I feel like a dumby or some bull

x-x

o-o

Take some..

Uh..

< Forgot the pill name.>

xD

LOL

I was gonna say shrooms..

but no!

I like his name though...o_o 'Sergio'

xD

Maria doesnt need that xD

o-o I knew a Sergio.

He was always the quiet shy type. xD

I sometimes call em 'flags' or 'wendys'

LOL

<<

-Cough-

Lmao

I always picked on him to open himself up o-o

xD

He always goes to wendys to order, parks at mc donalds and eats there and then hangs out xD

LMAO

it made me laugh so hard.

o-o

LMAO!!!!!!

I <3 Wendy'z.

I call em 'wendys'

xD

McDonalds is full of shit. o-o

but just not like...yeah xD

>_>

<_<

Lol it got quiet xD

I know. xD

Sometimes I wish I would have asked Eric out..o-o

WIND! ;Pelvic Thrust.; Dx

I just never knew if he was dating or not..xD

lol aww

I knew he was in freshmen year..o-o

Not the Eric, that passed away. o-o

I mean..the other eric.

Eric Nelssoon.

He was cute before he turned into a wonderbread. o-o

ooh I see

There was this guy. xD I forgot his name..but we used to talk alot and make each other laugh.

And I dig guys that have Michael's hair..

ts a fettish. o-o

So..yeah I started..liking him. o-o

And he always sat opposite of me.

Then he thought I REALLY liked him..o-o which i didnt because i was mean to him.

he didnt like me 'staring at him'

Isnt my fault. o-o Hes across the effin room.

xD Dang

So, Maria..<_<

Hm?

I shall ask again..to prep you.

o-o

How am I, How would you describe me??

< Air humps deh Nami.> o-o

Well, You're you >_> You're mean in a playful way, You always like to goof off,you tend to hide your emotions just like anyone else o_o and Well there's alot!But my brain ish fried LOL

;Brain damaged.;

xD

xD

<The bitch ya love to hate> o_o DAMN SONG!

x_x

<_<

< Listening to C.P.>

o-o

>>

xDD

;Been listing to it, evesince.; o-o

How would either of you describe me?<_< -Raises a eye brow- xDD AND BE HONEST!!!

The 1st two seconds always make me LOL. o-o

Okay.

You're always helpful, which sometimes isnt good for yourself because some dont deserve it. You can be sensetive sometimes, and especially with friends. :3 You're niccee and shy. o-o You can be random and..say weird shit that makes me laugh. o-o And..yah. You're always there to cheer me up when Im down. >:3

Yay!-Goofy clap- xD

xD

YOU'RE A GOOFY GOOBER! o-o

I wanna be a seal when I grow up o_o

<3

-Claps- ARF!

xD

LOL

Quick!Someone turn me into a seal!

o-o

< POW.>

o-o

xD

o_o YAY!

-Seal clap-

Arf arf!!!

xD

;Sprinkles confetti.; >>

<<

-Belly flops-

o_o

xD

<_<

-Tackled Nami and Lily into a belly flop-

Rawr!

o_o

o-o

opps

x_x

< Fell>

xD

-Squished?-

xD

Sowwy!

I'm just a seal

o_o

-Cough-

xD

Im so effin pissed! DX

Why?

o_o

Gasp.. o-o

IF HE EVEN CARES, HE SHOULD HAVE MESSAGED ME A LONG TIME AGO.

WHY COULDNT HE GO TO THE LIBRARY AND TELL ME WHAT WAS UP BEFORE??

o_o Small brain?

jk

>>

o-o

but yeah I know what you're talking about I'd be pissed to, xD Just trying to make ya laugh Lol sorry it failed

but uhm.

What you say is true.

I dont mind. xD

Lol

Im just letting it out.

o-o Say how I feel. o-o

Good good

let it all out

<< So I can crack more small minded jokes!

-Drum roll-

xD

SEAL FLOP!

-belly flops-

<3"

It was pay back. Dx

-Nod-

x)

But theyre all..eh..

Sex freaks.

:/

I can see that

<<

Perverted asswipes. o-o

LMAO!

that's the wor

word^

Michael isnt. o-o So it makes me think..

Maybe he..

WAS.

A catch.

Not anymore. Dx

Not ye.

Yet.^

Hmm

I think of all the shit he said to me before all the.."I love you so much. You mean everythig to me" and all the times he cries and throws up when he thinks im breaking up with him. But then he does..this shit and not talk to me..sometimes I wonder if he was lying. -.-; Ya know?

Yeah I know

o-o

I shall stab him.

xD

xDDDD

you and me both

I can honestly say..

o-o

I will kill that bitch

and him.

o-o

No joke. Dx

xDDDDDDD

SO MARK MY WORDS MARIA.

o-o

Ok

If the police come to you one day..

<_<

-Writes them down on paper-

And ask about me..

admit it.

"Yeah..she did it."

xD

-Keeps the notes- >>

I'll say.

Maria: -Closses door on them.- "That ASS DESERVED IT THOUGH"

xD

XD

EXACTLY.

<<

Its okay to say I did it. :3

I'll say 'YOUR DOG WAS THE KILLER!AND A YELLOW BELLY THREE LEGGED SEAL!'

Im not scared of going to jail after that. xD

>>

-Cough-

If they cant catch me..

I'll live forebah. o-o

If they catch me..

Yeah..

I'll admit i kill the fucker. Dx

Lol

But im being serious. xD

No effin jokes around here. o-o

but the seal idea would be so funny though o_o

I will kill him.

o-o Then do it? xD

YEAH! I WANNA DO IT!

o_o

xD

I WILL TURN INTO A FUCKIN BAD ASS SERIAL KILLER IF THAT ASS EVEN THINKS..OF CHEATING ON ME.

D:<

xDDDDDD

He cant go around promising me.."Youre the only one I love." "I only think of you." "I dont even look at girls anymore." "I dont take a second glance" stupid shit..Dx And then goes off..and does something like cheat..oh fuck no.

I'm slicing his tongue off.

His dick off.

o_o

and replace it into his mouth

LOL

D:<

xDDDDD

that made me laugh

for some reason

o_o

Next Day On The News: "A YOUNG MAN WAS FOUND LYING ON HIS BED WITH HIS GENITALS IN HIS MOUTH."

XD

LOL

"Police suspect his girlfriend."

"She is still on the loose."

"If anyone knowsher where abouts, call the tip hot line."

>_>

<_<

That should be my trademark and all. o-o

Unknown Person Known As Scratchy Throat: -Holds nose- Uh yes? is this the hotline? -Waits- ... -Scratchy voice- IT WAS A YELLOW BELLY THREE LEGGED SEAL!BYE! -Slams phone-

...

Losers

xD

-Cough-

Dont you dare cheat, because dah lily will come and beat ya ass. o-o

xD

<<

LOL

Woah. xD

GUYS!~ o-o imma go. xD

aw

Okay.

o-o

kk

ttyl

its late and stuff. x.x

Byez!

Buh byes. >:3

Byee. <3

<3

<3

<3

<3

I loves you all. :3

FLOOD!

love ya too

xD

xD

Byez

Love ya too.

<3

<3

<3

<3

<3

o-o

Bye bye. <3

xDDDDD

x]

Bye.

<3

<3

<3

<3

<3

<3

<3

<3

<3

<3

xD

xD

LMAO

Oh gawd. xD

Lmao.

xDDDDDD

WOOSH! >:3

;Poofs away.; x]

<3

RAWR

xD

I need to chug some nyquil. xD

lol nyquil?

That Brr guy..o-o

He sang to me last night. xD

LMAO

And Alex sand to me then. o-o

xDDDDD

sand..

Dx

SANG

damn it. o-o

funny xD

Sounds like a dirty word..

LMAO

"Yeah, well..Alex Sanded me last night"

o-o

"wtf is sanded?"

xD

xDDDD

" Your mom!"

D:

LOL

>_____>

<_____<

I cant blieve I even made plans to get married once. Dx

awww

With this shit going on..

I just laugh

At all the things I did.

o-o

"Omg, I cant believe I did that."

xD

I planned a wedding wether I had someone or not xD

o-o

Shit whoever i'm with I want a good wedding

Im scared of being called.."Mrs" o-o

I wanna be "Miss!"

I'm a Amor Real themed wedding. At a church reception.

o-o

The main cermony regular

I dont know if we have a song..;o; Me and Michael's.

He sings me a lot of songs before. xd

bridesmaids and bride have a diffrent styled dresses from back in the day like the movie setting

I want the bride and groom holding a candle while dancing o_o and having everyone else dancing around

like some big fairytale

xD

o-o

I have so much I want it's not even funny it scares me

I want butter flies to be released at my wedding.

o-o

I'll make a fool of myself..xD

xD Yeah that's neat

Im scared of effin butterflies. xD

Doves,butterflies,bubbles

rose petals

something!

I did tell you why. right? xD

no xD

When I was in 2nd or 1st grade..

We had a jar..with a worm in it..o-o

I liked it. xD

I was always around it and junk and talk to it like we were BFF;s

xD

Then one day it turns into a cacoon..

xDDDD

and turns into this..

creepy..o-o

thng..

LOL!Oh shit

xD

And..my teacher says we have to let it go. xD

so we do it..xD we go out..

we release it..

and because the wings were kinda wet still ..

it was having a hard time flying o-o

it buzzed in my face

and flapped its wings

and my hair and shit. o-o

LOL! a ladybug did that to me once

cept it landed below my eye

x-x

it hurt

xD

the other encounter..with a butterfly..was..me chasing one..xD then..I go back to my house in the backyard..and it follows me and sits on my ARM

I get fuckin scared and shriek and,..all that..>_>

then my arm turns red. xD

lol awww

it scared the shit out of me. o-o

thus why im scared of butterflies.

>_>

even though seeing one makes me smile..

too close..

and i get scared. xD

lol

o-o

I want Michael's mom to readdd the fuckin message already and tell him. Dx

I want to talk to him and tell him all the shit he's made me go through. o-o

x-x hopefully she reads it soon.

I think..I MIGHT be ready to let go. :3

hopefully

Then I wont always be saying..

" MICHAEL MICHAEL MICHAEL MICHAEL."

xD

xDDDDD

I know I talk alot about him. o-o

but when he's there..

I dont. xD

xD

bleh I just hope I dun get shy around Sergio >< again.

Dont you hate..going somewhere nice and..pretty..and you see a couple hugging..and you get sad and depressed because you wish you were like them?

I always feel like that. o-o

Yeah

I do

sadly yeah

It pisses me off sometimes. o-o;

My eyes water up alot and I just look away

Oh. xD

I dont.

Well..

Maybe once. o-o

yeah

But then..through out the whole day Im there..

I space out.

And dont talk alot. x-x

-Nod-

I want..someone to always be there no matter what.

Even if they are off somewhere..working..whatever.

I make one call, and say I feel bad, or sad..

I want him to come back to me.

And make me feel better. D:

right.

Someone who does the little things to make my life easier. o-o

or even do sweet shit

buy ir for you

it^

and dun even ask what you want

Even stupid thins like leave the door open..or..make me breakfast once in aw hile. o-o

the guys down here

bring me flowers just because.

o-o

I see them get their gfs shit

they shop by they selves

get them everything

Be all like.." I got you this because it reminded me of you."

"I got this because it had your name on it."

and i'm like 'damn, everyone else has someone but me'

and it pisses me off when people rub shit in your face

like what they got

Its even worse when you know you have someone..and they dont get you anything..x.x;; its like.."wtf? do you even care??"

and ask ya and shit

knowing they're doing it

i KNOW! ;o;

>_<

I just want Mr right to sweep me off my feet

tell me the things I wanna hear because it's tur

true

not just cause I wanna hear it

Before Michael turned into..a jerk. He used to sing to me..no matter what he was doing, he would stop and sing to me..he make me laugh and joke around..when Im sad..he always does something and say stuff like.."Fuck him" and make me laugh then.

Its hard to find someone that just..makes you laugh when you feel down. x.x

right

He doesnt even do the stuff he used to do.

I miss when we arent doing anything..or..we laugh and joke..and then..we come to this awkward silence..and he used to go..

"Lily..I love you so much."

Now..its like..

D: WHAT!?

x-x

He doesnt like me sad..but it isnt my fault. ]:

You'd be sad too..if..someone wasnt doing the sweet small romantic stuff anymore. x-x

yeah I do, and believe me I rarely got that at all...

Just compared to other people.

bitched at being called 'emo'

for doing something sweet

got stepped on and yet I stilled love and took half of their shit.

I just wish...I could have a piece of my old life back.

I wouldnt even waste my time on guys like that. x-x

Where I was happy with my first love.

Yeah..>.<

he...made me feel like...I was speacial

I was someone

I've always..ya know..you've been there most of the times..when I threatened to break it off with him.

not just a piece of meat.

Its always because..he said something wrong.

Or.. he's being shitty to me.

He doesnt appreciate something..or like that.

Im not just going to sit back and take it.

Thats why I always threaten him. x.x

So he better change or else Im gone.

yeah I remember half the time he use to beg me help you stay

x-x

call me up crying,panicing

It might hurt me really bad..x-x but..even then if i didnt break up with him..he would know I can do it just like that..

it was like' well what can I do' it's just bleh.

How can I make a point if he does that?

I threaten to prove a point and let him know I can break up with him just like that if he doesnt change.

Surprisingly..he does change..

I have to quit staying up late

Night.